Feelings

13 December, 2013

As I Know She Stood Before The Alter

Four o’clock Feel the time, heavy, Weighing on my heart, like lead, A fixture, not removable, screwed, bolted, welded. It’s happening, feeling it, right now, or has, Like damocles, dark blunt, over me. Four o’clock she stood Lives, already past, that motorway junction, long gone, Both separate ways, never eye-to-eye, bumper-to-bumper Still in tow, cable, arm thick, steel, invisible. Heart entwined, the key, singularly forged, in a bag, she has, like Mary Poppins, lost, to the wind, my heart.

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The Knife Strong It Cuts The Love

The… the garden, well kept, within bordered, walled, pikes of trust chance encounter, the bag spilt seeds, feelings, sprouting weeds of turmoil, to rank to protect, the soul to overgrow The Knife… the knife, jungle long, jungle sharp handle, worn well, balanced in trust chipped, aged, stained in the air, poised, do do to protect, what it has before and will The Knife Strong… the knife strong, in bearers hand darkened night, glittering trust oft before, to serve, the logical cut to protect, the not, that may be not survival

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It Hurts

The door closes. I know it is you Just know it It hurts You’re there but not there Can’t touch Can’t hold Can’t cuddle Can’t kiss your ear Can’t move your hair Can’t hold you close Can’t say how much I feel thee Can’t

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Just Sitting Here

Just sitting here I’m just sitting here I’m just waiting here for you my love and the love, which I have for you is still waiting here for you to have Ripping me It’s been ripping me tearing me right through the heart and the love, which I have for you is just tearing me right through the heart I’ve written some things which are hard to believe Done stupid things which are hard to conceive The stuff I have written has gone ov’r the top I’ve screwed it, mucked it, ball’s it, mega flop but one thing is certain, thats changing over lives ‘tis the power, the spirit, the love, which we have so stop a moment, and think of this shit, give us a chance, make us a hit

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Just Don't Know How

The rush of joy in the stomach, in the arms unexpected, being rolled over, taken by surprise yes, pure joy, could leap in the air like a kid with his first bicycle, or Christmas water drops on the outer lids I’m early and I’m happy to be here in a couple of minutes, be meeting them taunt face, trying not to bleed the tears the tears of feelings, strong, what the hell’s going on movement of the head, camouflage for a possible on looker mouth, dry, lips, hard, facial muscles, locked down

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The Fridge

Cold cold room, tall, no sun three woman high five by three, small yet not large, walkable seventy rounds, one kilometre stone, upon stone sixty centimetre walls solid, functional Cold Cold To The Eye cold walls, white, plastered, thrown on, over time, rippled, dented, rough white paint, covering, thick, runny, fingers the floor, concrete, overcast grey functional, used, stained paint, coffee, paper green, white, red works of blood unseeable To the eye

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How Do You Feel

“How do you feel?” She asked “Okay” I said, smiling “Is that all?” she retorted wanting to be told something like: “I feel elevated with you” “My heart flutters near you” “I feel free like a bird with you” “My heart is floating on a white cloud of pure bliss” …Or some other bumpf “Dunno” I replied I didn’t look, I didn’t dare to look dare to look down, deep inside down, deep inside, to see, the grey fog to see, the grey fog, covering the pit covering the pit, of ages the pit of ages, covered with a reinforced concrete lid a reinforced concrete lid, like those of the underground missile silos those of the underground missile silos, three metre thick a three metre thick lid, on that pit on that pit, ready to be taken off to be taken off, to see the those things to see the those things, of feelings, of a life time, of feelings, of a life time, writhing, around, writhing, around, to get out to get out, to be free to be free, to be felt, to be cared for to be felt, to be cared for, to be washed, to be washed of the pain to be washed of the pain, in rainbows to be washed of the pain, in rainbows, and with crystal drops in rainbows, and with crystal drops, of a thousand streams of a thousand streams, of tears a thousand streams of tears, to be washed free to be washed free with tears

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